If you have an Instagram account, you may have seen the hashtag #butfirstcoffee floating around. As of 3:55pm CST on October 31, 2015, there are 161,203 posts on Instagram with that hashtag. That’s a lot of people who really like coffee.
Here’s the thing. This post really has nothing to do with coffee, but the hashtag got me thinking – what really is first?
I ran across this quote earlier this week from an article referencing Tim Keller –
“Sin isn’t only doing bad things, it is more fundamentally making good things into ultimate things. Sin is building your life and meaning on anything, even a very good thing, more than on God…”
And as my eyes read those words, I instantly had a choice. I could turn my eyes away and pretend like I hadn’t read what I just did…
…I could face the truth and ask myself the hard question. “God, please show me…is there anything, even a good thing, that I am building my life and meaning on more than You?”
I’m a practical girl, so that meant asking the Holy Spirit to help me look at two areas of my life – (1) my daily life and what I do first and (2) my thought life and what I think about most.
Here’s the honest truth of what I’ve discovered…
ONE – My schedule, my color-coded Google calendar, and my agenda comes first.
It’s one of the first things I think about and look at, and it is also one of the things I think about most throughout the day. Now, I’m not saying being a time-oriented, task-oriented person is a bad thing, and neither am I saying that managing time well is a bad thing. However, we’re not looking at bad things. We’re looking at really good things that have become ultimate, first things and have taken over the first place status in our lives.
At the root of this, I am slowly starting to see the truth – it’s a love of self. It’s pride at its finest. I am in control and need to remain in control because I have proven that I am good at this doing life well thing.
Lord, have mercy.
TWO – Money and the sense of “security” it brings.
Jesus knew what He was talking about in Mathew 6:24 when He warned us that we could not love both God and money. This wasn’t just directed to the rich. It was written down for all human beings to remember as we go about paying our credit card bills, buying necessities, imagining our dream home, etc.
This then became the prayer I whispered this week – “God, I believe You are the Good Father and You direct my paths. You know what is best for me and You know how to provide for me all that I need. I believe. But please…help my unbelief…” (Mark 9:24).
The struggle is real but I know He is real, too.
Lord, help me to believe and trust in You first and foremost today.