On Monday, January 23rd, after just over 9 weeks in the NICU, our miracle boy came home!
Even though he’s been home for a week now, it’s still a little surreal. Sometimes I get up from nursing Josiah and I glance at myself quickly in the mirror and think, “Woah, there’s actually a real baby in my arms, in our home right now!” And as hard as it is to continually nurse and care for a little one all through the day and night (I fully believe I never understood the meaning of exhaustion until I become a mom!), I cannot even begin to express the emotions welling up from deep within the recesses of my heart.
The day before we finally got discharged from the NICU, one of the nurse practitioners came by to do her final assessment of Josiah. We started reflecting on his progress over the last 9 weeks (you can read more on that here and here). Apart from his VACTERL syndrome imperforate anus condition (which he would have had even if he had made it to full term), he had almost no preemie-related issues (e.g. breathing problems, digestive problems, feeding issues, etc.).
She went on to say, “Honestly, for how early he was born at 29 weeks and for not having any of those preemie issues, all I can say is that this was a miracle. He literally is a miracle.”
And in that moment, 9 weeks of heartache…9 weeks of praying and crying before the Lord…9 weeks of asking hard questions…everything, all of it, was justified.
Her simple confession, both as a medical professional and as an “outsider” (not a family member or close friend) wholly validated all that we had gone through.
Already, in just two months of life, our son is a living testimony of how God is real and He loves to do the impossible.
Last year, I chose the word “Immanuel” as my One Word for 2016, and reflecting upon all that we had gone through at the end of last year…He truly, truly was with us. There is no other way we would have made it.
And as the year closed and a new one began, I felt the stirring on my heart to believe. To reach for the impossible in a deeper, daily way.
To declare that this year, 2017 is going to be about miracles.
After all, I’m looking at one every day.
To the countless ones who prayed with us during these last 9 weeks, we are indebted to you. Thank you for being our village, our home team, and for carrying us through this season. We are so thankful to have him home.