Two

It’s the age all preemie parents cannot quite fathom when they’re holding their tiny newborn in the NICU.

As monitors beep and whoosh and hum, you hear the doctors say, “By two, your little one will catch up to his or her peers…by two, you won’t have to adjust his or her age for development…by two, most people won’t even know he or she was a preemie.”

Two seems forever away when you’re just celebrating one more ounce gained, one more millimeter of milk digested, one more day before you get to go home.

And yet, here we are. Already and finally at two years old. What a victorious birthday today is for you, my son.

Many of the little and big miracles I could not even hope to dream of during those early days after your birth have already come to pass.

You’re a miracle by God’s great design.

And tonight, as I gaze upon your sweet, sleeping frame, everything becomes blurry. And all I hear is this broken, whispered prayer spilling forth from this momma’s full heart before the feet of an Almighty, merciful God…

Thank you…thank you…thank you for the gift of this life, our son, Your son. Thank you for giving us the privilege of raising this child for You. Thank you for deeming us worthy to walk this road, to grow our faith in the very best way. Thank you for being Emmanuel God, for showing us the Father’s heart, the power of prayer, and the strength that comes from leaning on brothers and sisters to believe in the impossible.

Thank you for Your promise. And thank you for not giving up on us when we didn’t believe…when we were close to losing all hope…when we forgot Your promise. Thank you for Your faithfulness to our family through every valley and mountaintop.

And most of all, thank you for the gift of Your son. By His death and resurrection, we have new life. We have hope for healing. We have faith to believe in the impossible. We are children of the living, Creator God. And because of that greatest gift, we are the family we are today.

Four surgeries, 10 weeks in the NICU, countless doctors appointments, and many, many prayers later…here you are, sweet boy.

You are living proof of the power of prayer. You are everything God promised us when He said that you would be a child full of joy.

Your appa and I are so blessed to be your parents in this pilgrimage. We love you, baby boy. Happy birthday 🙂

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Celebrating Our Miracle // An Update on Josiah

Hi world!

I know, it’s been a long while since I’ve posted anything.  Is it just me or is 2018 flying by?

We’ve had so many beloved family and friends asking about our not-so-little-anymore miracle boy and his progress post-surgery.  Now that we are nearly three months post-op, it’s due time that I sent out a little update.

Long story, short…he’s doing REALLY well!  PTL! 🙂 Read more…

Josiah’s Doljanchi (Traditional Korean First Birthday Celebration)

The older I get, the more I am learning how to appreciate and truly enjoy my Korean heritage.  Two factors also help – the fact that I married a guy who was born and raised in South Korea and…my very, VERY Korean grandmother. 🙂  For those of you with a Korean g-ma, you know what I’m talking about!

Anywho, last month was our little boy’s first birthday!  And I spent weeks and weeks waist-high in glitter, hot glue guns, polyester filling, and beans.  But it was completely worth it.  You’ll see what I mean below. Read more…

Celebrating 100 Days & Much More // An Update on Josiah

It’s been a while since I’ve written an update on Josiah here on the blog and a lot has happened!  Over the last six weeks, most days have felt like that popular parenting quote – “the days are long, but the years are short” – or however it goes.  There are days when I feel like all I have done is feed and keep a little human alive, and if I’ve showered or brushed my teeth, it’s been a REALLY good day.

But then there are those magical moments…those I-just-want-to-freeze-time-is-this-really-my-life moments…and the gratitude just overflows.  These are the wonderful things that I could only dream about when we were in the NICU.  And now, we are actually living this dream.  Here are some of the highlights below…

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This is literally a miracle.  Josiah is now almost TEN pounds.  Double digits, people!  I remember the times in the NICU when we were just rooting for him to get to three pounds.   When I look at this then-and-now picture, I can’t even find the words.  So beyond thankful for those chubby cheeks and fingers! Read more…

December & Dark Chocolate

It’s finally and already December!  October leaves and pumpkin spiced everything had me eagerly anticipating the holiday season, but then Thanksgiving rolled around just like that and we are now all suddenly in the mad dash towards Christmas (and everything else that needs to get done and be enjoyed by the end of the year!).

It’s easy to get caught up in the rush, but I’ve decided to (try) to do things a little differently this year – take this December like a good piece of dark chocolate (biting off a little at a time and savoring every moment of it). 🙂 Read more…